next target: hometown!

hello, its midnite here.

and am gonna write for another depression here. ok, now i get the point, i write to release, to let go. am gonna letting go for stuffs that gave some bad affects to me.

first, past days i recognize what was my common mistake. what IS my common mistake. i keep my attention to details, and not for picturing the whole things. just like my mistake in recognizing it was keira knightley is the second daughter of mr. Bennet, the girl with black hair, and blue dress. the girl that have my dream future partner (read: mr. Darcy) mehehehehe. truth to be told yes, yes, i do remember how was the movie that good, the ambience, dialogues, but not for the important part as who's playing that role. huhuhuuhu am sorry rifaaaa

that leads to another main part of this post, about capturing the big picture of my life. huftness. tik tok, time goes by. tik tok, its almost a year. tik tok, i dont even know whom i used to trust in this kind of so called college area. i used to think "umm, i guess she/he's or they'r nice, we could be good friend" but noo, it doesnt turn out that way. i dont know why its so hard to find mates here. or i dont see the real condition-yet. i think its me who cant be the fine one for anybody, or atleast for myself though. lately i guess i prefer being myself instead of being a group of somepeople. i know this is bad, bad, for me. for the past version of mine. i even forget my closefriend birthday few days a-go, and suddenly another goodfriend of mine reminded me. and i was like, oh shee why i didnt regularly check my facebook? why? its how people remember birthdays dont they? didnt you? ok, now am feeling worse about me. am sorry, sorry :(

enough enough, i know am gonna regret this words by tomorrow. i need a cure, i need home. YEAH i dont care what you were saying about being home at this time, missed 3 day classes (which are equal 6 classes = 15 sks) i dont care, i dont really give a s or f about it. i need being home. i need being around with people whom i really trust and talk to them about something that i cant describe by writing. about how evil certain people can do harm to me, and i just can do nothing except accept it and enjoying it. (yes i write if for you, who never really count on me, left with those and not pulling me in, for some reasons i know u're gonna read THIS, feel bad about ur self because u are, left that angelic face, i know who the real u are)

kinda had hard slap there? yes. no one really count on me, or am not picturing the whole thing yet? mean time i just keep busying my mind with my mates (eng bem rif mb tan mb ri mas vi mas goz, etc,etc, hometown geng :'), next business project ( i count you as my kid, so u better grow up fine haha), RTC (marcommers, and all colleagues), BEM FE (yea i do really like-love people here, they are like my new familia esp birkom esti kak del jude sam evan) i dont know if these people think the same way as i do :P

WHAT NEXT, CX? HOMETOWN BREAK YEAAAAAAAH!!!

THE RAIN -AKON

The pressure's buildin' up

I feel like givin' up

How in the fuck am I

gonna back my first album up

Well everything has changed

It'll never be the same

Nobody know me

Then everybody knows my name

And I feel so ashamed

I never been the kinda nigga that would complain

But it's so crazy man

It's no different

Everyday it's just the same thing

Now it's been months out on the road

On tour doin' so many different shows

Head spinnin' feelin' like it's gonna explode

And I just wanna know

If anybody out there's feelin' me

I'm losin' my mind and I can't believe

I let this shit get the best of me

And now I gotta let ya know

One's got me insane

Cause I can't stand the rain

It's hitting my window pane

A little too much

And now I gotta let ya know

One's got my face in a frown

Cause I can't stand the sound

Of the thunder that's crashing down

Upon my house

Now I gotta let ya know

Now I got no more worries now

My pocket's fatter now

Look in the mirror my reflection looks different now

You're gettin' bigger

Akon you need to settle down

Why do I feel this way

Should I be happy

Should I just ignore

Everything I've been given

Please help me lord

It's all over but

I can't escape the rain

closure of sadness

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, never ever skip a day without saying this magical word ;)

so hows ur day, people? me doing gooood. college tastes like strawberry these days. pertama saya ucapkan selamat kepada ms. Anggita Widyananda Nugraha karena telah diterima menjadi staff psdm BEM FISIP UI 2012. satu lagi derap tegas memperluas jangkauan ketenaranmu, kepala suku! hahaha semoga bisa bermanfaat bagi manusia lainnya, serta memberi manfaat bagi dirimu sendiri yah eng :')

akhirnya masa-masa ini telah dimulai. masa ketika tiap helai dari rintisan kita mulai merajut asa. dengan kesibukan eng yang baru, rifa juga masuk di Green Community UI, woro dan mba tanti sedang menunggu kabar gembira lainnya. send my goodluck kisses trough my writing for my chicas here and there! :* :* :*

i know i know, kesempatan buat piknik ceria bakal berkurang mulai sekarang. it's a good sign meyb. let me try to read our faith, mungkin resolusi kita untuk menabung untung hingga penghujung tahun bakal tercapai YEEHAAAAAAAA! spread the positive thought guys. buat bemsky yang masih galau masa depan, stay focus and making the right decision, its not about anyone else but yourself!

selamat selamat dan selamat datang kehidupan kuliah yang sesungguhnya. saya sendiri alhamdulillah diberi kepercayaan untuk menjadi Kolega RTC UI FM 2012 divisi Marketing & Communication, salah satu divisi offair di radio kampus tercinta. sekarang sedang menjalani training buat menjalani hari-hari kedepan, semoga marcomm menjadi tim yang solid. i told you broadcast is fun with capital F-U-N! hihihi

sekarang sedang dalam masa penantian salah satu target yang lain nih. no more words come out. well, just like Andy said, get busy living or get busy trying..


see the progress!! am not the one who live full of sadness, now! haha! THIS IS IT, MY BLUE MOMENT IS DONE. i know i can make it trough the hard time, and so are YOU, anyone :)


This is another cute song by one of my favorite musician in Indonesia. definitely for rendezvous with friends :')

Back in the old days
Ballads of The cliche

Do you still remember when we used to chasing kite?
Once we ran trough the bushes and it hurt very much
But we didn’t cry that time
Though we laughed together how fool we were
It was a rainy February when I got this scar
When we climbed a mango tree to help a little kitten
Then I slipped my feet and then I fell
And my arms got bleed you took me home
When we got our new bike
We brought it to play in the park
We’re chasing one another restless
Until our mom come and shout
“Hey you two little bad boy, it’s already dark
Go home or you don’t get dinner for tonight”

And here we are sitting together
Telling stories we’ll always remember
Even we’re now much much older
Hope our friendship will last forever
Back in the old days, a happy time
Back in the old days, it’s always fun
Back in the old days, a happy time
Back in the old days, it’s always fun
Back in the old days

NEW!

akhirnya punyachika.blogspot.com ganti chasing juga :D
semoga dengan cangkang yang baru ini membawa segalanya jadi baru juga.

fyi, its been a year-few months i've been wearing hijab and am proud hihi why oh why i should inform this? uhmm well dunno. so saad there are few hijabi sisters who's wearing hijab only for fashion :( hah fenomena latah ini memang sangat identik dengan bangsa Indonesia rayah ini, semoga kedepannya makin istiqomah saja lah.

semester ini kalo ditotal udah 3x balik ke Solo hahaha. yang terakhir kemaren yang spesiaal, soalnya sempet nge-gigs setelah hiatus berbulan-bulan soalnya kalo di depok belom nemu partner gituu sedih bangeet yak :((. anywaay kemaren itu nonton interconnection #2; Leonardo, L'Alphalpha, Dried Cassava, The leons labyrinth, SUA, review nya bisa dilihat di blog-blog laen udah ada yang ngereview-in kok. walaupun sekarang sendiri (udah hampir setaun, bok!) tapi untungnya masih ada temen-temen yang menyayangiku. halah. thanks ya gilang-brian; my gigs-partner, nana, mas dhyankiamad, mentari, kiki juga. thanks juga buat sesi-curhat-after-event nya muahahaha. gile udah kuliah ya tapi masalah kayak kaga ada habisnya gitu -_- sedih banget pas udah agak naksir sama tshirt biru nya ballads of the cliche ternyata udh sold pas akhir acara.

me x mates x L'alphalpha (taken from kat's fb)

udah yaa, ini ada eng maen ke kosan,



salam!

hello (again)

hey, is there anyone who's reading my post? anyone? i only ask for human not that something-bot blablabla like recently spamming in some blogs thingy.

yeah yeah yeah, i need extra, double extra, brave just to log in at my blogger account. the truth is i hate being here. i hate re-read my own post. i hate remembering all those memories. this blog contains too much pain and makes scars over my heart getting worse :''''(((((

the oxymoron part is i love blogging, and i feel kinda betray this blog if i create another. i love you, yess my limited reader, friends and virtual friends. i love the feeling when this blog got new follower, or comment. i know, named me a pervert.

i dont know if this is my last post or this is last-but-not-least-post. but for now yes, am living in Depok, i got one of my SHS dream to be a college student in Universitas Indonesia. Management major at Economic Faculty. alhamdulillah, this is just another step to build suddenly morning :" i know there are soo much barrier ahead. getting further from my besties and familia, massive homesick, and so on and so on. and there is no such a love story no more. i hope i do well at this, very very well. amiiinnn.

:')

work it harder, make it better. do it faster, make us stronger. // strongger - kanye west